Sleeping Through My Own Death

Some nights I am overcome with the feeling I will not wake up. I feel my throat close up and I fight to keep my head in a position that will keep me breathing. I try to stay awake as long as I can. I put music on and stare at the glow in the dark constellations above my head. I fight sleep but I don't last long. Those nights scare me but the doctors say I'm alright. Take the little yellow pills and the headaches will go away.


Last night was one of those nights. I woke up in spite of myself.