Updating The Un-updateable List

Daily Countdown (Things I'm Excited For):

(9 days) May 2- Our Lady Peace Plays "Skyreach"
(97 days) July 28- Ani Difranco Plays "The Winspear"

You think I was pervy before?!? You aint seen nothing yet.

Okay so I recently rented 'House MD' Season One. I have fallen completely in love with Hugh Laurie aka Dr. Gregory House. He was born in 1959. I was born in 1987. Do the math. Then take the time to consider that if given half the chance I'd give him a jump.



See what did I say? Yep, that's 28 years. Pervy!

I found this. Thought I'd Share.

So a million years ago I decided that I was going to fix my life. Which as a side note I'm still waiting to start actually doing. So at four in the morning after a particularly violent crying jag I sat down and wrote this.

See I have this thing with making lists. I love them. Usually it's stupid shit, like that daily countdown that hasn't been updated in forever. I say I want to lose the acne and the weight and the bad attitude. This one however was a bit different. I found it today while I was looking through some of my lyric books. So here it is.....


I want...

to look in the mirror and feel beautiful.
to be somebody's somebody.
to know what it's like to feel truly safe with someone.
to know at least one true friend.
to fall in love more than once.
to have my heart broken and survive.
to find that one person I was meant to find.
to meet a kindred spirit.
to explore every aspect of myself.
to become comfortable in my own skin.
to look into someone's eyes for the first time and know them.
to put my feet in the ocean.
to fly on a plane.
to see another country.
to get at least one tattoo.
to write anything that affects at least one person.
to be part of something bigger than the sum of its parts.
to see as many concerts as I can.
to have a family.
to live some place warm.
to laugh hysterically for no reason until I cry.


Looking back it seems so strange that the me at 18 still wants all the things the me at 15 wanted. And I'm still making those stupid list. And I haven't lost the acne or the weight or the bad attitude. I know that most won't care about this list of what I want and that's okay. I think I just needed to be reminded.

Updates

So it's been an exciting couple of weeks. Which was kicked off by the best concert I've ever been to. Matt Good playing the Myer Horowitz theatre may has well have been a religious experience when I caught a glimpse of my face in the plate-glass window on the way to the bus home. Great beyond many words. Dude, he played Hopeless okay? Nuff said. I just wish that my mum could have come with.

Which brings me to the greatest shock to my system. My best friend in the whole world left to work "Up Nort" and yes the H was omitted on purpose. She can make in one week what she did at her old job in a month. Downside being that she has to be in a prison-like camp 14 hours from home. Which may not sound like much but considering that I've never been away from her for more than a week in half my life it becomes pretty ginormous.

When she finally came back we went to the Rob Thomas concert. Which was interesting to say the least. The whole way there my mum was complaining that there would be too many of those "JLo" rejects we have affectionately named 'teenyboppers'. We soon learned that it was quite the opposite. I would hazard to guess that I was the youngest one there that was not part of a family foursome outing. No one stood. No one sang. No one screamed. Except us. We sang and were quite respectful by chair-dancing. Exiting the theatre we over heard things like "I can't believe that girl, screaming the whole time."

Well SOORRRYYY!!!!!!!!!! I was at a concert. They looked like they were waiting to go into a job interview the whole time. Other than that the concert was great. He was awesome and given the reception he got he will not be coming back.

I quit my job. My mum left again. I got another job today. Decided I must return to Spa Lady.

God, my exciting life sure is boring.